blah.blah.blah

I've been jumping from the tops of buildings.
For the thrill of the fall.
Ignoring sound advice.
And any thought of consequence.
My bones are shattered.
My pride is shattered.
And in the midst of this self-inflicted pain.
I can see my beautiful rescue.

I'm falling more in love.
With every single word I withhold.
I'm falling more in love.
With every single word you say.
I'm falling head-over-heels for you.

I've been dancing on the tops of buildings.
At the top of my lungs I'm singing you a song.
Don't you leave me alone.
My bones were shattered.
My pride lays shattered.
Well I'll trample my pride and tell the whole world.
To dance with me.

I'm falling more in love.
With every single word I withhold.
I'm falling more in love.
With every single word you say.
I'm falling head-over-heels for you again.

I'm crying out.
"Wash my hands, these bloody hands Lord. Open my mouth and I'll sing."

I'm falling more in love.
With every single word I withhold.
I'm falling more in love.
With every single word you say.
I'm falling head-over-heels for you.

I've been dancing on the tops of buildings.
With you.

Labels: beautiful, blah, dj blaaah, in love, love, rescue, this providence

.. each and every single day..

just last night, before comin to work, densyo picked me up ((as always) even if my shift starts at 10pm, and his starts at 12 in the midnight)

and before we met up, we were talkin on the phone, and we were just whispering sweet nothings to each other like how excited we are and how we missed each other a lot (even if we were together the day before LOL(i know, it's cheesy, but hey, what do you care, we're in love, c'mon, give us a break))

and then..

suddenly after a short brief of silence..

he started crying..

i swear, it was like the sweetest thing a guy could ever do for a girl.

so i asked him why he's crying.

he whispered, "coz i miss you a lot.."


for real, man.

i was so effin touched, i just wanted to hug him and feel his heart beat onto mine.

it was the sweetest thing ever, i got speechless.

but of course i comforted him.

i told him, "don't worry, we'll be together again in a while..", with a smile actually on my face.. :)


that's all actually, i just wanted to share this really blissful moment.

and wala lang.. ü



this is actually the first time in my life that i ever got excited about gettin' married.. ü

gawd, i am SO in love. ♥

Labels: blah, dj blaaah, love, marriage

Labels: 2008, blah, boredom, dj blaaah, life, love, survey

so i slept at 7am.. i woke up because of the baby crying next door.. argh ang ingay... 11am plang..

so i went online..

checked mulitply..

saw my ex posted a blog.

a poem actually.



"eew" thought me.



"she requested one." wrote he.


i always requested for him to write me a poem before, he never made me any.

we-ell ha made me poems, but that was like when we were just starting out..

it's ganun talaga eh.. sweet lang sa umpisa..

we-ll, i mean, in his case.

coz of course, i was the major ex. i know this stuff. i know him better than anyone else.

sweet nun.. sa umpisa? tapos nawala. then nung nagkaron ako ng #2 (nitong starting ng taon ng 2008) at nagkapobre-problema na at magulong magulo (nahuli kasi ako, before naman hindi hahahahaha) naging sweet ulit yan..! talagang suyo kung suyo! kaso kahit anong gawin niya talagang mas pipiliin ko si #2 eh.

kasi he's so boring! he's so mabaet pa!

boring in... a-l-a-m m-o n-a u-n!! :D

i don't know nga kung pano nahulog ulit ang loob ko sakanya.. maybe because tinanggap niya ko ulit nung napalayas ako samin. kahit pa hambigat nung kasong ginawa ko (na ginawa ko lamang dahil sa sobrang heartbroken ako kay #2 (na-heartbroken dahil kailangan na naming i-stop ang napakasayang relasyon namin dahil sa bumabaho na ng husto ang pangalan ko sa barkada dahil sa paninira ni ex sakin (dahil mas concern pa pala ko sa pangalan ko, di ko na naipaglaban ang gusto ko.)))

pero ayos lang. B)

i dont need him, and i will never need that stupid boring guy in my life. :)

i already have someone in my layp.


(eto pa isang kabadtrip, cant stop snooping aroung, i used his (him, i meant my boypren) acct,

logged in,
went to his ex's pwetster acct,
and searched for old comments/testimonials..

and i cant help but get hurt (and betrayed?!?!) coz i read one of his messages there to her.. he referred to her as "asawa", i confronted him last night about this, and he keeps telling me over and over again, na ako lang talaga ang niyaya niyang magpakasal. ugh the nerve. i don't know what to believe. worse thing pa dun, i shouldn't even be making all these fuss for that stupid little thing coz it's not supposed to matter na. it's in the past na eh.

worst?!

he dedicated the song "more today than yesterday" to her din pala before!!!

¡el nervio!

i dunno, maybe there really IS sumthin' wrong with me.


we-ll anyways, going back. (para sumaya saya naman ako!)

it's funny. i wanna laugh. :)) cause the one he likes right now is so panget, she's mahaba baba. :))

nuthin compared to moi of course. :)

Labels: asawa, blah, dj blaaah, hate, long chin, love, poem, stupidity

and so freaky.

im so bored kasi. so what im doin right now is just surfin the net.. as in surfin, to the point na pwetster ng boypren ko ay binabasa ko pa, kahit pa na out-to-date na siya. (year 2004 pa, oo lam ko, gago ko noh. haha).

eh kasi naman, sabi niya sakin dati (nung niyaya niya ko magpakasal) na ako lang daw niyaya niya to be his wife, and to be the one with him standing in the altar with his dream wedding (oo dream wedding, didn't know guys thought about things like that din pala), and never to one of his exes. and so, kilig to death naman ang lula mo. ^.^

tapos kani-kanina lang, nabasa ko ung mga comments ng ex niyang malibog, (malibog kasi sa bawat papuri niya sa testi niya para sa boypren ko ay nasasama ang mga words na "sexy" or "nice ass", kulang nalang ay isulat niyang "ang seksi mo talaga, tara magkantutan na tayo, NGAYON NA!" haaaay bongkang. hahahaha!)

ay ayon, going back, so nagbabasa nga ko diba, tas nakita ko dun na ni-refer niya siya as "husband", so nahurt ako.. ng kaunti, mejo nabawasan naman na kasi, pero kanina nanghina talaga ako. tsaka nahilo? ewan ko haha.

so tineks ko si boypren, sabi ko, "bat ka niya tinatawag na asawa before..?"

so ineksplen ko muna kung ano ung tinutukoy ko.

sagot naman niya sakin, "feel niya siguro mag asawa na kami nun nung tumira ako sakanila.." (na isa pang nakakabadtrip na pangyayari, dahil sa pagtira niya dun ng isang taon (ng hindi ko na maalala kung bakit nga ba siya tumira dun (at wala ng balak pang malaman)) ay nagawa na nila ang lahat ng..alam mo na, kaya wala ng bago para sakanya. feel ko nga minsan baka ako lang ang nageenjoy heehee.) potaena :D

at wala naman daw un..at pabayaan ko nalang daw kasi ako ang lablab daw niya.. tsaka daw di niya raw niyayang magpakasal un.. at iyon pa ay nagtatapos sa salitang "pramis".

so mejo gumaan ang feeling ko. pero...

hambigat parin eh! waaaha. *hinga hinga*

don't wanna admit. but im really cursing her deep inside.

but at the same time, i'm thanking her for treating him like crap. coz if she didn't? (yeah, this i'd love to admit!)



we wouldn't be together right now.
i wouldn't be this happy.
i would still be miserable as always, like for the past 4years of my life.
i would've became a slut by now. harhar.

but i did not. thanks to him. and so i thank God for giving him to me. and again, thanking her for treating him like crap.

and of course, i also thank my ex for treating me like crap.

pero bat nga ba ganito ako, apekted padin. oh baka naman nagpapapansin lang siguro ako..? kasi alam ko namang mahal niya ako, at wala na sila, at alam ko namang sigurado at seryoso siya sakin.. pero bat ang kupal ko parin. bwahahaha.

ok na ko ngayon, kelangan ko lang ng mga 30 minutes pala para lang kumalma.
salamat narin kay Kali, si kali ay natuklasan ko lamang sa internet. mother goddess siya sa India, source of life and fertility has prehistoric roots daw. siya ung goddess na kulay blue na madaming kamay haha. hankyut nga niya eh. :)



(siya nga pala si Kali, pero pang trip lang obviously ung pic na yan.. hankyut niya no?)

siguro nga nagpapapansin lang ako?

Labels: jealousy?, love

ikatlong buwan na namin, kahapon lang. ang sarap talaga ng feeling kapag inlab ka no? palagi kang nakangiti tuwing naaalala mo siya. mga happy days niyo. kahit pa na tambay moments lang siya. lahat ng maalala mong pinag-usapan niyo napapangiti ka.

dahil iyon sa oxytocin na niri-release ng utak natin. ngayon, kung ano un eh, ewan ko. hanapin mo sa wikipedia. basta ang alam ko chemical siya.

nakakatuwa. kasi kahit tatlong buwan palang kami eh sobrang inlabs na kami. ilang linggo palang kami, pumasok na agad sa isip niya na gusto niya kong makita ng naka wedding gown.

ilang araw o linggo ang nakalipas, niyaya na niya kong magpakasal pag dumating ang tamang araw.

kama-kailan lang, niyaya na niya kong magpakasal.

oo magpakasal.

bata pa kami alam namin un.

kaso iba talaga.. nag-click talaga kami kumbaga.

hansweet nga, kinilig ako, ngumiti lang ako ng adik na ngiti (un bang tipo ng ngiti na hindi natatanggal sa mukha, parang nakahithit ka ng ganja kumbaga) at tumango sa tuwa.

alala ko pa ang exact words..:

"magpakasal na tayo.."

sino bang di kikiligin nun. eh nung hindi pa kami at magkatropa pa lamang ay sinasabi niya sakin na ayaw daw niyang mag asawa muna, magka-anak na lalake oo, pero asawa, ayaw. oha.

at may naging ex siya before sakin ng halos mag-apat na taon, at di niya naisipang yayain siya na magpakasal.

hayun, kaya ayun, lalung natuwa sa kilig ang lula mo. umikot baga ang panty.

at lalu ring nainlab.

ako din mismo, sa ex ko, apat na taon kami, oo naisip namin ang pyutur, pero sakin, personally, ayoko munang magpakasal.

nandidiri nga ako sa salitang "marriage" eh!

kakilabot baga.

pero ngayon.. haha tama na ang korny ko na.



tama si MC DUANE (ke-pwetser ko: http://apokalipsis.blog.friendster.com/)

• You’ll read his/her IM’S, texts, e-mails over and over again…

• PAG NAGIGING CORNY KA NA!!! KAHIT BRUSKONG BRUSKO KA!! HAHAHA!!

• Parang kahit hate ka na ng buong mundo ayos lang.. basta wag lang sya..

• While thinking bout him/her.. your heart will beat faster and slower at the same time..

• Sinasabi mo sa kanya na “goodbye” pero ang gusto mo naman talagang sabihin ay… “please stay”

• While looking at him/her..you cant see the other people around you.. you can only see that person… kahit na malabo ang mga mata mo!!

• Feels like you’re in heaven yet you want to be with him/her kahit na he/she is from hell..

• You’ll get high just by their smell… ano sya MARIJUANA?? COCAINE? ACID? KETAMINE? EKIS PINOY? SHABU? LSD? RUGBY? UTOT? SOLVENT? ECSTACY? X-TANO?? NGEE!! HAHAHAHA!! ADIK!! =)

• Sa kanya lang “umiikot” ang mundo mo kahit “hilong-hilo” ka na at kahit sa iba naman umiikot ang sa kanya.. aray!

• You’ll realize that you’re always smiling to yourself when you think about him/her.. hala ka!! sa MANDALUYONG na ang bagsak mo nyan!! Sa MENTAL na kayo magre-reunion nyan!! (madami kasing nabaliw sa pag-ibig) AMININ!!

• You’ll do anything for him/her…

• Kapag umutot nang malakas yung partner mo sa harap mo, tapos hindi ka na-offend o nandiri man lang at sa tingin mo eh cute pa yun. :p

• Kahit BAD BREATH sya ay hindi mo sa kanya sasabihin na mag-toothbrush ka nga!! Kahit SUKANG-SUKA ka na sa PAGPAPALITAN NYO NG LAWAY eh tuloy pa din ang TORRID KISSING nyo kahit gusto mo ng isigaw na…. “WAG KA NG MAGSALITA… UMUTOT KA NA LANG” HAHAHA!! YUCCCK!! KADIRI TU DET!!!

• tipong gusto mong huminto yung oras pag kasama mo siya humaba lang ang pagsasama nyo sa mga oras na iyon.

• Pag bata ka pa kasi feel mo attracted ka na sa tao eh. sa iba naman crush is just plain attraction, after nun wala na. ayun, nagandahan lang or nagwapuhan yung iba, di’ba?? iba kasi pag love. you just can’t stop thinking about that person and as much as possible dapat kasama mo siya bawat minuto ng buhay mo.

so ayun, iilan lamang yan sa mga isinulat niya. naisip-isip ko kasi, sobrang katotohanan ung mga isteytments na andyan eh.

halimbawa lang kumabaga.

so ayun mga kababayan. apir. tayo'y magmahalan.

lusubin ang gobyernong pilipino!!

*IRONIC?!*

Labels: fart, gobyernong pilipino, kissing, love, marriage, torrid kissing